I feel people when I am in connection with them. I feel them very clearly.
I once wrote a letter. An email to Mrs Merkel, our Federal Chancellor. A few days later, I’m walking with friends in the park, a strange feeling suddenly comes over me. Suddenly I know that on this Sunday afternoon Mrs Merkel has just read my letter. I notice how I am suddenly cut off from everything outside. From all the people around me, from my friends. I feel a determination that I had never felt before. At this moment, nothing stands in my way. I could do anything. My will is so centred, so focused, so solidified that I would be capable of anything. But I no longer feel anyone. I don’t feel any connection, I only feel me and in the most concentrated form I could imagine.
At that moment I knew what the state of consciousness of people in power was like. The first spontaneous association I had was – don’t laugh – that of a peat briquette. A peat briquette is a rectangular rock-hard piece of peat that used to be used for burning.
A very apt association, now that I think about it, because a peat briquette consists of dead formerly living matter, compressed to the maximum and bone dry.
After this experience, which lasted only a few seconds, maybe ten or twenty seconds, I realised what kind of state of consciousness I am normally in. When I returned to my state of consciousness, I felt how expanded I was, how light I was and how translucent. I felt like a kind of mist. A mist with tentacles, reaching out to people to things, into the universe, into infinite being. Infinitely extended light fog.
Now I understood why I could not be single-minded and still cannot be, why I am spread out and feel everything and everyone. I lacked and still lack any solidity as I experienced in the state of consciousness of Mrs Merkel.
It’s a strange story, isn’t it? But it is true. It happened exactly the same way and that’s exactly how I experienced it. I don’t fool myself about such things. I feel people when they connect with me. Over thousands of kilometres. It’s not always nice, because most people are in suffering, in anger, in hate, in despair. But that’s how I learn everything about people.
That’s how I know every state of consciousness. And I know only one thing: people in power must not be in such a state of consciousness as I experienced with Mrs Merkel. They must not be dead, stone-hard, delimited, feeling nothing. They need delimitation, of course, but they also need expansiveness, tentacles to other people, to things, to the universe, infinity and beyond.
They don’t need to be as nebulously spread out as I am. Absolutely not. But they do need to feel. They have to feel that there is more than what their mind wants, than what their mind wants to enforce.
And they have to listen. Listen to guys like me. Guys who are fogs spread wide open. Who feel everything and who can communicate it all.