I had to wait ten years to be ready to meet the right people. I had to let ten years pass in order to be able to meet these people on the same level and thereby take the „next step. The „next step“ means entering another section of the circle. To change the consciousness of my overall context.
Ten years. These are the temporal dimensions we have to talk about. Maybe even of a whole life. Or perhaps also of several, until the consciousness of this connection can change. Until the „next step“ is „up“.
This waiting is not passive. It is active devotion to the path. Waiting is devotion.
I have forgotten my past in detail. I realize this when I meet old school friends again. Sometimes I have to rummage in my memories for a long time to find the stories they just told. Sometimes I rummage in vain. Or what shows up after a long search is only shadowy and recognizable to me.
My future is in the hands of the leadership. That’s all I can say. I can be sardonically replied, „You’ll see then, in old age, when the pension is not enough!“ I don’t have to care. For it is the leadership that determines my life. The „guidance“ is the circle. I give myself to it. On him I walk in the sense. So I do not know what was and so I do not know what will be. After ten years I have entered another section of the circle. Now I await with calm joy what may come.
There is a nature people – I have forgotten the name unfortunately – which has no detailed time concept. If two people of this people arrange to meet then and there, then it can be that one of them waits several weeks at the meeting place for the other. That’s how vague their concept of time is. It is not a problem for the one who waits. He waits at leisure until his friend arrives. Perhaps he does not wait at all and even this concept is foreign to him.
Why is it not a problem for him? Why might it not be a waiting game for him? It is not a problem for him because he went from a place where he was taken care of and is now also in a place where he is equally taken care of. He can hunt here or there, has water and can spend his time in safety and sleep in peace. Since he does not need more and life does not demand more from him – it does not even demand a fixed concept of time – he is safe here and there and it does not matter to him where he is. He is in paradise. Here or there.
We think all the time that something always has to come. We always have to wait, because something always has to happen. So much is around us and in our hearts. We always have the hope that when everything finally happens, we will finally be in paradise. We don’t see that this chasing after and this impatient waiting for something is exactly what keeps us separated from paradise.