I want to go back to the forest! I want to go back to my dogs! I am so lonely. I can’t even talk to anyone here in France. It’s all completely foreign here. And now I’m supposed to go on! Who knows how long! Further and further away from what gives me security!
That is homesickness. I’ve never been homesick before. Now think of Werther. It’s the ego that gives me such thoughts. Because it thinks it is separate from everything and by going back to where it is known, where there are people and situations that are known, it could reach unity again.
This is a false state of consciousness. Nothing is separate. There is no loneliness. In the right state of consciousness, this question does not arise. Therefore, there is nothing external to chase after and nothing seemingly known to return to from an apparent stranger.
My ego is just saying that it thinks it is a pity. For how else is it to erase its pain of loneliness? Perhaps that is the great lesson because of which I am taking this journey. Transcend everything. Then cling to nothing. Actually a pity, that is also beautiful, to return to what one loves, says my ego. Actually a pity…
Perhaps the right answer will be shown to me yet. To be able to cling to nothing and yet love the individual as an individual, as a single being.